I’m sitting here in the MCL lab listening to some music with my mind wondering on what my purpose MIGHT be… What could I possibly be here for? All the broken hearts and disappointments I’ve faced throughout my years already; why would I go further in this life? I’ve searched for a purpose many days and haven’t been successful in finding that clarification yet. Oh Lord, I wonder where these overwhelming feelings of emotions flow from. Humility reaches my throat and a knot forms so intensely that I am forced to think of funny moments that I’ve encountered lately. As I am sitting here grateful for ‘those’ times I find myself at ease again. Glancing at some ladies walking in, I realize that we all are dealing with something inside whether we wear it on our face or not. How could I possibly feel alone I tell myself? Well, it’s easy when your best friend in the whole world lives 7 hours away and can’t possibly hug you at that instant; that’ll make you feel instantly solitaire.
I suppose that I will SNAP out of this pity party that I am in and PRESS on… Jesus, please take the pain, the hurt, the aches, the confusion, the selfishness and turn it into SOMETHING GREATER than my imagination. Father, only YOU can and will provide me a peace that passes ALL of my understanding. I lay it down, lay it down…. AT YOUR feet! Thank you in advance for blessing me BEYOND any expectation that I could EVER know. You are divine and precious to this humbled heart.
